build up so high, to fall so far

I don't want to sound melodramatic, but i've been spiralling down for the past two days. I'm on break from Arby's, and, as of now, i'm not feeling too horrible. I'd rather not think of tomorrow and what it brings. I've been home most of today, except for going to see stephanie at waffle house. I'd love to see her again tonight, but she's got things to be doing, photography class emails, school work, arby's and more. I don't want her to worry about me, and, when i do come over and cry around her, it makes me feel even worse for doing it around her. It's on her mind, and that's just more for me to feel bad about. Things are seemingly picking up, slowly but surely. I've hit the bottom, rock bottom, and picking yourself up isn't something too easily done.
I miss and love you stephanie. You do help, just listening to me.
I have to go back to arby's now. Hopefully, everything will work out fine in the end.
Love to all who read my blog, i appreciate much, especially in times like this.