My Preoccupation

Search Apocalypse Now and tell me if it looks good to you(it'sa movie)
Well, i understand where you're coming from when you say it shouldn't be like this, but i just don't know what to say. I agree with you on the matter nonetheless. Maybe this is why we need time apart besides the progressing and developement of ourselves. So many questions with no right or wrong answer, nor straight foward plan, although i do think we should be open with each other on what's on our minds; sometimes it's not always the best thing to do. I'll cheer up, but that won't stop me from always going up and down. I'm not always depressed. And i know you're not. It's in my nature to anylize and even over anylize, but that doesn't give me any reason to foward the thoughts to you, nor complicate a situation merely on the grounds that it's on my mind. I'm sorry i bring about these times, i sincerely mean/meant no harm by them. And it brings hope to this air when you speak of riding this shit out, because i know i'm willing to toughin out for you and for myself, and it gives me a sense of security. I hope I'm not more of a burden than a carrier of yours. I can't be any more sincere. I need you to talk to me, and i will listen to understand to the best of my ability. I want you to be as real as you are with yourself to me, and i can't do anything besides that on my part. To look at the same situation from to perspectives is better than one. I am proud of you for how you've dealt with me, and i love you for it. I wish i could go back in time to change somethings i've said and done, but we know the reality. We've made it this far, we've climbed this high, we've even looked down at our path, and we're still ready to climb.

I love you, i love you, i love you.
Your burden and your carrier,
Your lover,
Orion Malhotra

P.S. Call me asap about tonight @ my dad's cell, i'm holding it so don't worry about any angry party on the other side. I tried calling you but no one is picking up.