ACT 2: Quarantine the Addiction

So it's been about 3 days since i've written in this bitch. I'll say it again, I need to write more. I'm lagging, falling behind the crew, not living up to par with this writing stuff. But whatever. Do you care? Hope not.

There's been a problem for many years and finally, now, a solution. This addiction of mine has gotten out of control, and there's nothing I could do. I blew up the tobacco corporations all around the world; it was there only thing i could do! For serious! You'll be hearing about it on the news relatively soon.
Now to get to the truth of the matter, which is a repugnant truth, yet obviously truth, that I'm horribly addicted to cigarettes, and there's is almost nothing i can do to get past that fact. I've quit for a day and a half, but that isn't enough, starkly. So i've started back up last night, only to quit again sometime in the near future. I have shown key constituents in the quitting process, and, now, i know i can quit if i try hard enough. That dawns some hope over me about the whole situation. It has been beneficial, definitely. I know that i can set aside my feeling and wants, confine them, to achieve my goals; it just requires energy and determination. The requisites are hard to muster up but worth it.

My dad and sisters think i need to make new friends and go do new things with new people, new experiences, which i can understand and agree with to an extent. This doesn't mean stop hanging with my friends or girlfriend, just make room for new people and new experiences. I hope i can make some new friends and do new things without losing any of my old friends. I don't think it should be any sort of problem. Since i'm so in love and needing for stephanie, I don't think it's possible for me to not spend a good portions of time with her every week, especially when one or both of us can drive. I must spend time with her, or i'll lose my head. I need her around.

David and i were somewhat talking about this yesterday, leaving out the part about Stephanie. I was hoping that was inferred. We need to spend more time together, playing music and doing busy work or talking. We've both had a long stint in the depression ward of our minds, and i'm sure we can help each other within reason. We can do the usual things together, but i'd like to go do some new interesting and learning events too. I really would like to go to a museum of something, somewhere in the area, with David and/or Stephanie, but i know Steph doesn't, nor i, have a car yet. Maybe a road trip is in order. Sounds fun to me.