-Poof- i'm back again

I’ve been preoccupied, so my blog has gone untainted for a little while. I’ve got so much driving requisites to fulfill if I plan on getting my license this summer, and if things go well after school I’ll have gotten my temporary license test finished, finally, and have scheduled two drives. Not bad for one day’s accomplishments. You’ll have to watch out for me on the roads here soon because there’s no way I’m going to. I’m playing, but I’ll still be an inexperienced driver. Things went well on my birthday, and I’ve still got a feeling like I can squeeze more out of this event since I didn’t really get anything from my parents--one thing. I’ve gotten a steel drum from Jamaica, hand beaten and all, and I’ve been playing on that thing for a two days now, sounding okay for a newbie, no Jamaican of course. Forgive me for not posting much; I’ve been feeling like this blog is no longer private, for a few reasons: David reads my blog, I have things I don’t want people to read about, and my family knows how to get to my blog. All of which are legitimate reasons for not writing much blogwise. Maybe in due time I’ll have more to say about things that aren’t so personal, but for now I’ll just leave them out of this place. My mom has been the usual I assume, but I can’t really know for sure, since I spend so little time with her now and days; and just wait until I move out, when there’ll only be a few days a week I’ll have to see her! The slim benefits of my age are finally taking effect, closing in on the time where I’ll be able to do what I want to do with my time; and that’s avoiding my mom in my free time, at least most of the time. Kylee will be graduating from college with a Bachelors Degree in some sort of counseling, crisis counseling possibly. She’s a strong lady, my sister, and she will be strong in her whole life because I know her will power and motivation are both charged and adequate for her. She’s been dealing with tons of problems with Jeff, her boyfriend of 3 years almost, over some of the most heartless things I’ve heard from a relationship but so petty at the same time. See, they’ve been talking about getting married for a while, and everyone in my family is happy to hear it; but his mom is some insidious bitch to kylee, talking behind her back and lying to her face. Jeff’s mom puts so much pressure on Jeff to brake up with Kylee for reasons unknown to her and our family, yet invites Kylee to dinners and lunches to seem friendly. The insidious, conniving bitch can’t come straight out and tell Kylee that she doesn’t want them to get married, but she’ll collaborate with the rest of his family to censure Jeff’s decision. So, poor Jeff and poor Kylee have been having problems because Jeff’s got a myriad of complications in his life right now, from family, from Kylee, and even financially. That’s no reason to get him down, but I’m not the best person to talk because I’ve got my problems too, letting them get to me just the same. What a way to live, being sad or angry at the disability to reconcile with family or responsibilities, and what is it going to restrain yourself from fixing these problems, if they’re amendable, even if it means dealing with some strife and complaining along the path of reparation. I’ve got guilt problems, always have, but I know that if I try to solve them or even just block them out, I’ll be making a difference. I need to remember trying is good enough; and caring is good enough. Yesterday, I came to school with so much on my mind, hidden from myself, and I felt like I was just distracting from something but I didn’t know what. So, I called my dad and got a ride home to my mom’s, and he didn’t end up showing his procrastinating ass until nearly the end of lab. I shouldn’t complain; I did get to go home with a smile on my face, might I add. I had to return if I was going to turn in my makeup homework for E-Commerce with Mrs. Leonord, and it turned out I also had to take an easy test which I received the highest score in the class on. For some reason that stuff comes to me easily. I thought about it, and I came up with this realization that in E-Commerce we usually use the same foundation of ideas for almost all of the concepts. It’s boiled down to about three basic ideas, which we use all the time in our everyday planning. They are: make plans or preparations, get professional help if needed, and maintain what’ve got. Those are the fundamentals of my everyday relationship with myself: make preparations for the day, Get professional help if I need it, and maintain my state of mind. For reasons unknown, I’ve got so much to say today, even if some of it is reiterating. Things have been going well with Stephanie and me. We’re getting to see each other still, even though she’s living strictly in the new townhouse in Huber Heights. I miss her, and all the opportunity I’ve lost when she move. I used to be able to sneak out and pick her up with my sister’s car, but now, there’s almost no possibility of those escapades anymore. It’d take noticeable gas and time to drive that far without getting caught by one authority or another. Her move wasn’t as bad as what I think she thought it was going to be. I’m glad she’s not glum anymore.